The Joy and Responsibility of Being An Uncle

Being Autistic I felt gave me great joy in childhood. As an adult it's been admittedly harder find that joy from a society that has mixed expectations of you being a being an adult but in many ways it infantilizes you. Beyond that I feel that people of my generation and younger have a deeper more immediate yearning for childhood. Now, nostalgia is not necessarily a bad thing but I feel if you can go to deep into, it can blind you to the realities of being a real human being interacting with the world. But the thing about being an Uncle to a beautiful fantastic intelligent two year old boy, it connects you to the nostalgia of childhood, yet it gives you a sense of responsibility as an adult and realize you are going to be apart of guiding this child in this increasingly chaotic world. To me that means something I cannot fully express in words. But when I see him running around roaring like a dinosaur, and just seeing him absorb the world it gives me a feeling beyond nostalgia. And I know when I am older I am going to be nostalgic for this version for him. And be ready to help and guide whatever version of him exists in the future.

Sincerely, Your Autistic Shaman you Beautiful Bastards!